Update

Well, just a quick update.

I've left the LDS Church, but still keep in contact with my friends from the Church. I've left my shop job, and got a more...satisfying job, and it offers more hours and career prospects :D And I met someone! A little while after my last post, I met someone from my old Primary School. So in fact, I didn't "meet" him...just "re-met" him. Anyways...I met him whilst I was on a date with a friend, and in the evening, the friend and I were gonna go out with his friends, and I literally just insisted on this guy being invited...and I'm so glad I did! At the end of the night, I kissed him...I asked him out for the next evening...just to get to know each other a little better, (so...a date?) and the next day, he asked me to be his girlfriend! I don't know what prompted me to say yes, but it as the only word I wanted to say :D There was something about him...still is...that made him so attractive...He has this way of making me forget everything that's wrong, and just smiling and being happy with him. He makes everything seem lighter, better.

There's just one problem. He lives in another county. So we decided to fix that problem. I'm moving in with my grandparents...in that same county...In the same town!

We keep rowing over silly things...Like we'll go for weeks without a row...and then we'll just spend a week bickering with each other, and I hate it! I don't eat properly in that week, I don't sleep properly, I just don't feel right in myself...I don't do my job properly and I'm really distracted... and it's the worst week ever. And I said last time that I couldn't take it. I really can't deal with it much longer...but he means so much to me and I don't want to let him go... The happy times are worth the bad times...If you get me...